The Last Time

The last time I was getting ready to go on a plane, I had a terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I became numb, and quiet. The words "Why", "I don't understand", "how", and "wow" come to mind. The phrases "Did you know he had a girlfriend?", "The funny thing is, her name is Brooke too." kept running through my head. I hadn't slept or eaten all week. All year actually, since it was the first week of January. My family and friends were all in bed, as I was staying up all night, & packing for a trip to Florida in which I spent the whole time on the computer, feeling sick to my stomach, and thinking about a week in which I had the best times of my life.

This time I'm getting ready to go on a plane, and that same feeling is there. Its there, but for different reasons. I'm not sure what they are yet, but I'm sure I'll find out. This time I'm going enjoy my trip, and take my mind off of everything.. at least I think. I can't wait.

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