something.

I need something.

Or someone.

Just to hold onto.

fast.

I envy people who know what they want in life.

Sometimes I feel like I'm getting no where fast.

This Was Just too Good to Pass Up.

You: herro

Stranger: \

Stranger: /

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You: snake?

Stranger: I

Stranger: No, I'm a T-Rex.

You: NO WAY!

Stranger: Oh yes.

You: you're like.. the last one left!

Stranger: ...
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Stranger: Orly?

You: AHHH!

You: yea i think so

You: can i pet you?

Stranger: Oh my...

Stranger: well.... I suppose.

You: "pets the t-rex"

Stranger: =D

You: *pets the t-rex*

You: lawwwwwl

You: WOW.

You: i feel honoured

Stranger: hi

You: herro

You: i just met a t-rex

You: and i pet him.

You: jealous?

Stranger: SEX ME

You: REALLY!? ALL BECAUSE OF THE DINOSAUR?!

You: herro

Stranger: hello

You: i just met a t-rex.

Stranger: haha

Stranger: u must be joking

You: well.. i dont know. he showed me a picture.

You: it was on omegle.. so its gotta be true right?

Stranger: picture?

You: yea!

Stranger: by omegle?

You: mhmm.. wanna see it?

Stranger: mmm, ok

You: ...
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You: cool eh!?

Stranger: wow

Stranger: cool

You: yea, i was pretty stoked.. he even let me pet him :)

Stranger: haha

Stranger: u want a real one?

You: yes :(

You: but i think he's the last one.

Stranger: why?

You: cause they became extinct 43824328974289472843272743248324793247 years ago...

Stranger: hahaha, u're smart

You: thanks, i try

Stranger: so wats ur name?

You: duckie.

Stranger: duckie? cute

Stranger: lol

You: i was named after the land before time..

More Omegle.. I'm sorry, It eats your soul

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

Stranger: Hello?

You: hello!

Stranger: Alex?

Stranger: Guess not.

You: kristina

Stranger: Ah well.

You: good luck

Stranger: Sam.

Stranger: Mmh.

You: lol

Stranger: So how're you?

You: oh just lovely, yourself/

Stranger: Irritated at the fact that I accidentally closed a tab with an interesting conversation.

You: don't you hate that?

Stranger: Yup.

You: i've done that a few times (N)

Stranger: Mmh.

Stranger: It's very annoying.

You: i agree.

You: so whats up

Stranger: Nothing.

Stranger: Just sitting around.

Stranger: Omegling.

You: sounds fantastic

You: i'm picking out a new wig for my act

Stranger: What act?

You: my drag act

You: should i go bleach blonde? or fushia

Stranger: Hmm...

Stranger: Bleach blonde, if you're going drag.

Stranger: Over the top is hilarious.

You: short or long/

Stranger: Long.

Stranger: So you actually a guy, then?

You: Yep, what about yourself?

Stranger: Also a guy, but less of the drag.

You: you should try it. its fun. my friends don't know i drag though

You: neither does my wife (N)

Stranger: Eh, I'd rather not.

Stranger: I'm happy with men's clothes.

You: well, at least you can admit that

You: the bra is my favourite part.

Stranger: Mmh.

You: ever warn a bra?

Stranger: Faintly disturbing.

Stranger: ...

You: try it next halloween

You: sometimes it gets a bit itchy though

You: oh well, satin is nice

Stranger: Once again, I'd rather not.

You: i can deal with that.

You: so, you single?

Stranger: Yes.

You: ah yes, thats the way to go

You: FBGM, right?

Stranger: Huh?

You: .. fuck bitches get money

Stranger: ...

Stranger: No.

You: oh.. you from the uk or something?

Stranger: New Zealand.

You: WOAH SWEET.

Stranger: Huh?

You: i've always wanted to go there.

Stranger: Who doesn't?

You: australians?

Stranger: Well noone cares about them.

You: guess so. Americans seem to think they're pretty hot.

Stranger: Pff.

You: so whats there to do in NZ? any cool drag clubs?

You: or maybe normal ones for me and my wife to go to.. :$

Your conversational partner has disconnected.

Omegle. Say what?

This website kept me up until 4 am. Brilliant fun though.

You: oh you know just studying for my OWLS

You: you?

Stranger: OWLS? isn't that something from harry potter?

You: Something from harry potter? uhh.. what are you talking about

You: he's like a legend at my school

Stranger: oh god. i'm not sure if i love you or hate you

You: quick! make a decision :P

Stranger: i love you

Stranger: Look, you sexually confused, spineless degenerate.
You : You type too slow.

You: hawaii

You: you?

Stranger: china

Stranger: is it ok?

You: sure

You: i'm asian too, i don't discriminate.

Connecting to server...

Looking for someone you can chat with. Hang on.

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You: I'm a mermaid

Stranger: hi

Stranger: forsaken mermaid???

You: yes sir!

Stranger: ok

Stranger: so sup???

Stranger: mermaid maam

You: nothing, flipping my fins.

You: you?

Stranger: ok.....alphabetically adoring a mermaid

You: awh, how sweet

Stranger: thnx

Stranger: may i knw whr u frm

You: the bermuda triangle

Stranger: okiii

Stranger: ok we evn hv connectivity out dere.........gosh???????

You: you bet!

You: my father is the merking, so he gets it done

Stranger: merking ??????????/

You: yes.. merman king

Stranger: i couldn't get it sorry

Stranger: oh......my salute to the king

You: yes, i'll pass that on

You: good night fair human

You are MY hero.

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You: my last boyfriend dumped me because of my beer gut

Stranger: I'm sorry.

Stranger: He must be shallow.

Stranger: Findd someone that will love you for you, not your looks.

Stranger: Find*

You: thank you.

Stranger: You're welcome (:

You: it might've also be because I told him I was turning into a man.

You: what an asshole eh?

Stranger: I wouldn't know if he was an asshole, although it wasn't very nice for him to dump you for such reasons. Some guys are just too shallow these days.

Stranger: Love should be through thick and thing.

Stranger: Thing*

You: I know. you think he'd be comfortable with being gay in this day and age.. he should've known though. I do grow a better beard than he does.

Stranger: You are my hero.

You: thank you.

You have disconnected.



I love people like this.

Butterflies.

I need to use this more.

p.s the butterflies have arrived.
6 more days.

Pretty

Please don't tell me I'm pretty.

I don't know what to say back.

Thanks? I guess..

I can't believe I didn't recognise you.

"So close your eyes and let me in. Cause baby I'm an alien, like you."



I'm glad you've gotten somewhere Sebastian.

Funerals, Families, and Happy Bonfire day.

Today, I went to a funeral for a woman I have known my whole life. She's been there every christmas (minus the last 4), and has always had little trinkets and a smile for my sister and I. It was a lovely funeral, quite a few people showed up. My cousin Amy read a poem, my cousin Matt read a bible excerpt, and Gina (pronounced Gin - ah. Different, I know right? Her name is actually Virginia.) & Talley talked about her. Its hard seeing someone that you've never seen before cry. When that one person cries, its tough. My cousin Amy fell apart before reading her poem. Thats when it got me. I choked up and my eyes started welling up. I tried to hold it back though, but my throat just kept getting smaller. Yep, thats right. I'm emotional now. Mary Lorraine was 89, and has had Alzheimers for the past 4 years. You don't really fully understand Alzheimers until it affects someone you know. Every christmas my family would talk about it. "She doesn't remember us much, but she remembered Matthew. She also remembered that she didn't like Matthew's girlfriend." Its crazy stuff really, but in all honesty its probably for the best. R.I.P Mary Lorraine.

During the service I started thinking about my own funeral. How morbid is that?(I've also planned my wedding, but what girl doesn't?) The first thing I thought about was the Church. First of all, this was probably the most gorgeous church I've ever been in. Honestly, massive high ceilings, hand painted ceilings, stunning stained glass windows, beautiful organ pipes on the walls (my grandfather was once caught with his friends, behind an organ in a church blowing into the pipes. Just something he told me that I thought was funny today), and lovely wooden pews. This was the first funeral that I've ever been to in a church. It was interesting I suppose. Too much singing and praising for me though. Personally, I think churches should be a wedding thing. My funeral? Well let me tell you about it.

Its got to be in a pub. Like on P.S I love you. That was perfect. Every time someone cries you take a shot in my honour. I better see some tipsy people because of that, if not you can count on me haunting you. There will be no pastor, minister, or priest. The service will be done by my closest friends & family. Each will say an excerpt on our lives together. Thats my favourite part about funerals. The stories. The stories are best. You hear of the persons favourite things that that person has ever done, or the most touching. You hear of nicknames, quirks, and their favourite places to be.

The service today made me wish my family was closer, they all seemed so close. Someone said to my aunt today, "Wow, so you're all down here for the funeral!". My aunt said, "We're all in Ridgeway. We don't see each other a lot, but we're all in Ridgeway". In all honesty, my family sucks at being a family most times. I love them all to pieces, but we don't really know each other. I see my dad's side once a year. Christmas time. Even though we all live 5 minutes away from one another. Its pathetic really. Christmas is quite possibly my favourite time because that is the ONLY time I see them. I look forward to sitting around my aunt's living room and listening to them all talk, cause believe it or not, I'm know as the quiet one in the family. Everyone is always talking to each other, and that leaves me sitting on the couch taking it all in. Occasionally, I get a "So Brooke, what play are you doing this year? Where are you going next year?" Those talks don't last long though. I'm content with just listening. Its what I do best. Anyway, Yes I understand that most of my cousins live about a province away, but everyone else lives in Ridgeway. I think the fact that we never see everyone has to do with my dad being the youngest by 6 & 8 years. They're all older, and have kids the same ages. That just leaves us out I guess.

Wow. This is retardedly deep.

Anyway, Gina lives in New York. She's actually pretty awesome. Americans are actually some of the nicest people I know. I haven't seen this girl in probably a decade or more, and she was telling me I could stay in her house when she's off on business trips. She kept saying, "COME TO NEW YORK! You can stay at my place! I'd love to have you. Just make sure you have a credit card though, and I'll take you to the best places!" Seriously, if I ever go to NY, I'm calling her up. She used to work at Tiffany's & CO. You can imagine my jealousy. Someday, I'll live in NY. When I do, I'm definitely going to try to get a job at T&CO. Talley, on the other hand, works for Abercrombie & Fitch. High up there though, she's a "buyer". She goes all over the world. In fact they had to postpone the funeral because she was working in Warsaw, Poland. She also told Casey, "Add me on facebook, I can get you A&F discounts."

Ahhhhhh, people are lovely.

We went to The Cheesecake Factory for the first time with my Grandparents for Casey's birthday. The wait took forever, but I think it was worth it in the end. My Grandmother was getting tired during the wait, so she was resting her head on my Grandfather's shoulder. It was quite possibly the cutest thing ever watching an 84 year old couple do that. I can only wish I have what they have when I'm their age.

Anyway, Its been a long and tiring day.

I'm going to look at universities tomorrow.

Laurier Friday, and Waterloo & Guelph Saturday.

Happy Bonfire Day!

&

Happy 16th Birthday Casey!

(L)

Goodnight.

x

P.s the 21st is growing nearer.

*gulp, gulp* :| (yn)

P.p.s Someone I haven't talked to in a while texted me today, saying "hey, you go to school in toronto right? I'z liiiike HAHAH, nope. Definitely, not.

P.p.p.s Birthday in a month and 3 days.

BOP.

"BOP BOP BOP, BOP TO THE TOP!"

Every time I usually have a song stuck in my head, its JUST that line. I don't even know the rest of the damn song.

I've been eating too much candy lately. I need to stop. I also need to start drinking loads of water.

This is tough. Why? Because I am one of those few people in the world that dislike drinking water. I've never really been a fan.

My sister is 16 soon. Crazy stuff.

For a month and 5 days we will be a "year" apart. I mean, not actually, but in number form.

Casey = 16

Brooke = 17.

Yep. Birthdays are a love/hate relationship for me. Hours before I usually start freaking out. Just cause I'm a little like Peter Pan I suppose. I don't really want to grow up.

Well, I've had a headache since I came home from school today.

I'm going to bed.

Goodnight.

x

This is Halloween

Hello.
I suppose I haven't really blogged much lately.
Not much is going on.

Halloween was last weekend. It was a pretty good one.
Its an odd feeling thinking that I was racing door to door to see who can get the most candy the fastest only 2 years ago. Then last year I went to a terrible party only to have the cops crash it, and feel most uncomfortable in every situation (worst Halloween ever, might I add). This year I handed out halloween candy while I watched Xfactor with my Father, and drank wine with my parents and the Johnstons. Then Becca came and picked me up and we drove to Swan's house. After leaving and stealing all the Reese's Peanut Butter cups that we could hold, we went to Becca's house. From there Marin picked us up and we went to crash this girl's party who we go to school with. This was awkward because:

1. We actually weren't really invited. Just Allen was.
2. We didn't know many people, they were all FESS kids.
3. The girl who's throwing it, one of her best friends, pretty much hates me.. I think.

We ended up walking in, and walking straight out. After leaving we went to the variety store for cigars, drove down to Harbourtown, and sat down on the rocks on the beach. There, was where I had my first taste of 151. It burns on the way down, but I can take it ;). 3 swigs and I suppose I was buzzing. Not for long though. Next was Becca's turn. After a lot of persuading, she finally had about a shot. It was enough to mess her up for the rest of the night though, she was tipsy. We then walked around, and after a little while we drove to Tim Hortons. I ended up seeing a girl whom I used to babysit/was on my baseball team for a few years. She looks so grown up! Its weird. She told me I looked a lot different too, which was something I suppose I wasn't really expecting. Mainly because I think I look the same as I did when I was 14, just a different hair colour.

Anyway, after Timmies we chilled in Allen's basement for a bit, and I went home. It was a good night. I'm eating Halloween candy at the moment. I've decided to try a Coffee Crisp. I haven't had one in quite a few years, so I'm going to take a gander. Here we go...

Well, its not bad. Definitely not my favourite chocolate bar. I don't hate it, but I don't love it. Time to get rid of the taste with a Reese Peanut butter cup. :) I like when you take the wrapping off the cup, and the bottom doesn't come off of the cup onto the wrapper. Its lovely.

Anyway, my dad just came home with DQ.
I'm excited.
x